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"The Angel Way" Abstract Energy Art

The Angel Way” by Primal Painter

I really love this one.  The colors, wow, sunglasses worthy! (heheh.)  The imagery has a nice flow,  the hidden angels and moon face are super cool, and the vibe when I look at it is high. I’m going to put a moon face in all my digital paintings from now on, it’ll be my signature.  Back in the olden days, I made a decent living making a celestial line of mirrors, chimes, wall sculptures and mobiles, and I still dig that celestial vibe……and pyramids, I like pyramids……and spirals.

My desire to communicate seems to be at an all-time low, but my creative juices are flowing pretty well, so that’s a good sign.  During this  phase of non-verbalism (or non-verbalocity, or no-talk-aholicism) which I have come to call “The Great Silence of the Yams 2011”,  (Yams is code for vocal cords), I decided I should do another chakra angel to check in on the condition of my energy flow.

I was surprised to see the blue throat chakra so open.  I thought it would have a “Closed Until Further Notice” sign on it or maybe a “Danger-She’s Gonna Blowww!!” sign nailed to it.  There must be something else going on with me because I sure do feel strange….cocooned……internal…….like I’m in a womb, all wrapped up and closed off to the outside.  Not stagnant or stuck, just inside myself, like in the eye of a tornado where everything is still but all around me is a wild whirlwind of debris, Wizard of Oz style. Weird sh*t, maan….

What she would look like matted and framed

The Crown Chakra – White, the combination of all colors, (some say violet, I say white) Our connection to Source, our connection to our higher selves, everything is one, part of the whole,  the spiritual aspect of believing in something greater than ourselves and the knowing that everything could make sense if the veil came off.  The veil is thin right now, I get glimpses but not the whole sh-bang. The glimpses keep me hanging out in the crown because of the mystery, that curiousity, that burning desire to “know“. (Know what?). It’s so big and sparkly and bright and shiny and happy and safe. No wonder I like to hang out there although according to this diagnosis,  it’s  probably out of balance with the rest of the  chakras because of it’s gi-normous size. Balance is everything, but then so is timing….patience, grasshopper.

The Sixth Chakra -Purple (some say indigo blue, I see purple) – The Third Eye – The Seat of Intuition –  I see you”,  Na’vi style from the movie Avatar, seeing the issues behind the pain. This one doesn’t look too bad.  I’ve been working on blue and purple digital paintings lately while focusing on the fifth and sixth chakras and I think this process has cleaned out some of the cobwebs in both of them.  Cool.

The Throat Chakra – Blue – Communication, change, committment, verbal self expression, speaking your truth.  It looks fairly open and clear but it’s out of alignment, not by much, but by enough that it needs attention, more work, the next step. I’m still convinced there’s something stuck in my throat but I can’t see it in this picture. (Maybe it’s behind, maybe I should do an image from the back side, yeah)

The Heart Chakra – Green – The Bridge between the upper and lower chakras, the mediator, love, nurture, empathy, compassion, understanding, Christ-like. (I wish I was more Christ-like).  It looks open and cleared out, but not very vibrant or active. I recently finished the heart chakra painting with the intention of opening and clearing, so this is good.  The next series of chakra paintings will have movement, activation,  spin, and spiral. (spirals!!!)

The Third Chakra – Yellow – The Solar Plexus- thinking, intellect, self worth, self-esteem, self identity, who am I?, what is my purpose? why am I here?   There’s something I’m supposed to do. I know I can do it.  I’m slightly out of alignment with my higher purpose but it’s close….I think too much and don’t feel or do enough, possibly because the second chakra isn’t open enough.

The Second Chakra – Orange – Hara – the center of emotions, (easier to shut them down and pretend like they’re not there) male or female identity, sexuality, intimacy, bonding.  Poor ole’ second chakra, it’s open but needs more,  lots more. The color is good though, so some clearing has taken place so at least there’s been some progress..

The First Chakra – Red – Root – Kundalini –  Procreation, survival, safety and self preservation, bodily life energy, stamina.  And there it is, that puny first chakra.   The plant is only as strong as its roots.  It’s not dark, so that’s good, it’s just small and needs to be more open and activated.

And the grounding cords, what grounding cords? There’s a red light at the bottom of the angel where it looks like the grounding cords have disconnected and pulled back into a dark cave.  That’s not so good, but this is a typical problem with me.  I have a tendency to float….

So now I know what to focus on.  I love chakra angels!

(Disclaimer: These chakra attributes are how I understand them and are not necessarily how an expert might define them.)

Until next time, whenever that may be……

Laurie

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Synchronicity and Life Purpose

I’ve been a big fan of James Redfield for years who wrote the  Celestine Prophecy series of books. If you haven’t read the Celestine Prophecy books, they’re centered around synchronicities, spiritual insights and awakenings. I don’t have his latest book, “The Twelfth Insight” yet, but I’m going to order it today.

I’m also going to start reading the series from the beginning because it’s been a few years since I’ve read it. A movie came out a few years ago called the Celestine Prophecy, but unbelievably I haven’t seen it yet.  I’m  going to see if our video store has it, and will be getting it as well. 

Why all the excitement about James Redfield?  Well, I got a notice in my email, that a James Redfield had followed me on twitter.  What?!  Surely not THE James Redfield!  But it was!!  I went to the link from his latest tweet, and below is what I read.

Global Prayer Project sponsored by James and Salle Redfield

Beginning on April 14, a predicted second phase of Unity Consciousness is due to enter the world according to the Mayan Calendar and other prophecies. Again, this deeper spiritual consciousness is something that we can feel personally and see operating synchronistically in the outer world. Remember, this Unity Consciousness, called a 9th wave of divine creation by the Mayans, is predicted to come into our perception in a series of in phases. The first phase, called a Seeding phase, began on March 9 and was characterized by the expansion of the democracy movements in the Middle East and a new emotional empathy with those suffering from the shocking earthquake in Japan and the economic turmoil, especially in the US. The second phase, due to arrive on April 14, is called the Germination phase.


Obviously, this new consciousness is what I have been calling the Twelfth Insight, and I have pointed to the necessity for all of us to “Tune in” or open up to the emerging energies of this spiritual consciousness as though we are — as the Mayans suggested with the names of these phases — cultivating a consciousness within ourselves like a farmer would cultivate a plant. This week, let’s offer our prayer and visualization toward enhancing and uplifting this process. Join us as we seek to bring the arrival of this new consciousness more readily into public awareness in a way that transcends the fear, pain and anger so many are holding onto.

Wow, how very synchronistic!!  I got a crazy wave of goosebumps when I read this and also when I read other articles on their website CelestineVision.  In my last post, I compared the awareness of my life’s purpose to a cutting from a plant with no roots, but finally feel as if  I’ ve sprouted  some roots.  According to the Mayans, March 9 (my daughter Andi’s birthday, how synchronistic!) was the beginning of the Seeding Phase, and April 14 begins the Germination Phase. Maybe a seed is what I was, not a cutting, but I was close! 

Another strange synchronistic date for me is December 21, which is also a Mayan prophecy date, the big one, which some have misinterpreted as being the end of the world but in my opinion is more along the lines of the beginning of a new level of spiritual consciousness. 

On December 21, 1984, I was the victim of a very brutal attempted murder and rape that took place in my own house while I was in college. I repressed the memory of the rape for 17 years (it happened while I was unconscious from multiple head and brain injuries), and when it finally bubbled to the surface nineteen years later, I thought I was going insane. 

This incident is what triggered me to seek out help.  I was led, very synchronistically I might add, to getting my Reiki degrees and learning about energy work.  Maybe I’ll write about that story some day, it might be good for me, although will undoubtedly be disturbing for readers.

Also, I ran across one of my old notebooks from years ago where I had “Lightworker Studio” written all over the page. Wow, trippy. Maybe I’ll change my biz name to Lightworker Studio and start to live my life like somone who believes, like someone who’s sprouted roots, rather than someone who just says the words.

So anyway, I’m a little blown away.  I wonder what will happen today?  Expecting synchronicities is how to keep them coming, according to the Celestine Prophecy.
 
“Live every moment of every day with awareness and intention.” I think this will be my  new tag line that I’m going to repeat to myself over and over so I don’t doze off again.

 
Have a good one!

Laurie

Full Moon/Spring Equinox Energy Art

“Full Moon/Spring Equinox 2011”

The image above is my tripped out energy art version of last night’s full moon infused with the energy and colors of today’s spring equinox.   In an effort to understand my feelings of weirdness for the last couple of days, I discovered an interesting article from the website celestial vision.  The couple who maintain this website are actually from my little town of Eureka Springs, Arkansas.  Eureka is full of spiritually minded people and is also situated on an energy vortex which seems to attract an abundance of artists, musicians, writers, colorful characters and overall weirdness.
The following is an excerpt from that article:
Rare Cosmic Cocktail Opens Portals for Spiritual Seers By DL Zeta

A unique blend of cosmic alignments over the next few days opens a
portal into new potentials fed by deep streams of renewed creativity and
inspiration. This is truly a portal of new beginnings and powerful
manifestations.

Tonight’s (Friday) full moon is closer to the earth than at any time since 1993.
This full moon in Virgo coincides with the spring equinox, which lasts
three days from March 19-21. The spring equinox marks a time of year
when day and night are of equal length, helping us achieve greater balance.

Add to this mix a rare alignment of the Sun and Uranus at the equinox
point of zero degrees Aries. This alignment holds the potential to open
energetic portals for inspiration, creativity, new insights and visions.
It marks a time to listen to deep streams within and work with
intentions powerfully aligned with our spiritual purpose for the highest
good of all.

As we work with our highest intentions, we are able to align with others
on the inner planes to anchor a new time in human consciousness. This
weekend’s cosmic alignments will greatly facilitate these efforts.

We Stand at the Threshold of an Unimaginable Future

This is an important moment in time when energies are crystallizing in a
future that is at times difficult to imagine within our present
timeframe. The best way to navigate this time and utilize the
opportunities it offers is to go within your heart and reside in place
of peace, love, and allowing. As you exist in harmony with the flow of
your natural rhythms, you exist in harmony with all the universe.

Standing Strong as Old Structures Crumble

During this time of accelerating earth changes and troubling events
playing out on the world’s stage, it is more important than ever to open
to the wisdom and guidance of our higher knowing. As old structures and
forms crumble to make way for the new time on planet Earth, we are able
to stand strong in love and compassion by staying connected through a
telepathic connection to our higher self.

We offer here some steps to strengthening spiritual telepathy. As we
develop a telepathic connection with our higher self, we become
spiritual seers able to reach beyond ourselves into the heart of love no
matter what comes before us. This ability to remain centered in love and
compassion is the source of true healing.

Click HERE to read the whole article which includes her recommended steps for spiritual strengthening.

Now I know there are some who might think this is a bunch of woo woo, and that’s cool, but I’m one of those woo woo girls who resonates with this information.  There are things in this universe that are hard to understand with the logical mind, but when the logical mind is bypassed, the intuitive mind can kick in and that’s when things start to flow.

The full moon image I created this morning was done in preparation for my fourth chakra painting.  I think the fact that this astrological event is occurring at this point in time is very synchronistic.  Ironically, today is also my 50th birthday which despite being just a number, feels like a turning point of some kind.  I believe that all of this is very relevant to not just the healing of my extremely damaged heart chakra, but is also setting the stage for the next phase of my life. 

Wow, that’s some deep sh*t…

Happy Spring Equinox!

Laurie

Personal Development: The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

This photo is a warp-ization of the view from my balcony.

I was thinking about personal development yesterday and how for me,  it’s been like a slingshot…..I’ll get pulled back further and further with  more and more tension, then at the breaking point and just in the nick of time, I’ll shoot forward and end up with some new revelations and epiphanies, and maybe even make a little progress.

Here’s a story (one of many) about an event that triggered a big jump in my self awareness.  Ever since I can remember, I’ve been told by those who had the most influence over me, that I was just too sensitive, like it was a bad thing or something to overcome….”You need to grow a thick skin if you want to get by in this world, you’re just too sensitive”.  And I was sensitive, things affected me deeply and I bought into it.  I learned to laugh and joke to hide it.

At the time, I had no clue that much of what I was feeling was actually the emotions of other people and that those emotions didn’t even belong to me yet I was taking them in and making them my own.  It wasn’t until I was thirty years old that I finally had that “what the……?” moment when I realized what was really happening.  I’m an empath, but not some big magical empath with great powers, just…..an empath.

I was renting space at a place called Englers Block in Branson, Missouri.  I was doing woodburned portraits from photographs on cedar plaques at the time.  This lady walks up to me, hands me a small photo and says “Can you do a portrait of her?”  It was a school photo of a pretty girl about 8 years old.  I looked at this photo and within seconds my chest started to get tight, my throat started to get tight, my stomach felt sick and I burst into tears.  And I’m not talkin’ a little tear in my eye, I’m talkin’ a full blown loud sob session, enough to turn heads and make a scene. Rather embarrassing…….

She remained completely dry-eyed and stoic and said “That’s my daughter, she died a month ago.”  Whaat? Well I just lost it……full blown, uninhibited melt down.  I pulled myself together eventually, apologized to all the concerned people who had gathered around, but I don’t remember what happened with the portrait or the lady.  She had served her purpose, I guess.

I do, however, remember the astonishing realization that apparently I pick up on and express other people’s emotions, most noticeably unexpressed grief.  From that point on, I started to see myself in a different way.  Maybe being too sensitive wasn’t really a bad thing, I just needed to work with it and either allow others emotions to  come into me and pass on through without owning them, or  put up an energetic shield that protects me from feeling those emotions altogether.

I always seem to forget to put up that shield, but I’ve gotten much better at recognizing when something doesn’t belong to me .  I don’t really understand what purpose all of this serves, but I do know that I’m one of those people that gets confided in alot and sometimes I stumble across the right thing to say.  I have a tendency to isolate myself, though.

Now I get accused of being naive about certain people’s bad behavior.  I see it as more of an awareness of  the root emotion behind the behavior which seems to feel more like a wounded child than a bad adult.  

Now the trick is to avoid being co-dependent and taking on too much responsibility for another person who needs to learn their own lessons at their own pace.

Maann, there’s always somethin’……..!

Well that’s enough deep thought for today.

Have a good one!

Laurie